i give up
-josh
Friday, September 12, 2008
sleepless nights
*sigh* another sleepless night it seems,
so its 3:30 am(even though the post time says different, my computers a retard) and i once again am so awake it hurts, and as per usual...i cant get her houtta my head.
her friend gave me another idea that i cant stop thinking about...i really should write a song indirectly about her...but me being the idiot i am, i cant come up with anything...well more like im coming up with way too much. Every time i try to start writing it the ideas pour out like a waterfall and i cant tell which will be the right ones...the perfect ones.
ugh, i really wish i could sleep, plus it also doesn't help that i just polished off an entire pack of smokes in 5 hours...i really need to quit, or find a new less dangerous addiction.
for those who don't quite know yet, this will be day three of me waiting for her, and i can honestly say i've never been more patient and willing to wait, it kinda scares me, along with a few other things such as my insane mindset that i dont need or want anything sexual, which for those who don't know me is a big deal, i don't know though, i really just feel like i need something with actual feeling and emotion instead of just a physical connection, and of course i had that but im an idiot and ruined it.
right well...im starting to get kinda tired now so im gonna try and go to sleep, will post another one tomorow afternoon.
goodnight everyone,
josh.
so its 3:30 am(even though the post time says different, my computers a retard) and i once again am so awake it hurts, and as per usual...i cant get her houtta my head.
her friend gave me another idea that i cant stop thinking about...i really should write a song indirectly about her...but me being the idiot i am, i cant come up with anything...well more like im coming up with way too much. Every time i try to start writing it the ideas pour out like a waterfall and i cant tell which will be the right ones...the perfect ones.
ugh, i really wish i could sleep, plus it also doesn't help that i just polished off an entire pack of smokes in 5 hours...i really need to quit, or find a new less dangerous addiction.
for those who don't quite know yet, this will be day three of me waiting for her, and i can honestly say i've never been more patient and willing to wait, it kinda scares me, along with a few other things such as my insane mindset that i dont need or want anything sexual, which for those who don't know me is a big deal, i don't know though, i really just feel like i need something with actual feeling and emotion instead of just a physical connection, and of course i had that but im an idiot and ruined it.
right well...im starting to get kinda tired now so im gonna try and go to sleep, will post another one tomorow afternoon.
goodnight everyone,
josh.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
the waitng game
what is it that causes a person to wait for something?
for me its hope, the hope that waiting for her will be the right thing to do
It all started about a week ago...i had just broken up with my girlfriend and began to realize that it was the wrong thing to do...i tried everything i could to win her back and it led me to only one option, waiting.
waiting for her to hopefully feel the same way as i feel for her, and even though it sounds cliche, ill wait aslong as it takes, her bestfriend has given me some hope aswell as two of my best friends, i only hope there right because if this is all for nothing, itll totally suck..
well, more to come later.
josh.
for me its hope, the hope that waiting for her will be the right thing to do
It all started about a week ago...i had just broken up with my girlfriend and began to realize that it was the wrong thing to do...i tried everything i could to win her back and it led me to only one option, waiting.
waiting for her to hopefully feel the same way as i feel for her, and even though it sounds cliche, ill wait aslong as it takes, her bestfriend has given me some hope aswell as two of my best friends, i only hope there right because if this is all for nothing, itll totally suck..
well, more to come later.
josh.
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